whyvoneenee @whyvoneenee@sunbeam.city

I want to wear suits with a flat chest and woo people as a suave and dapper individual.
I also want to have curves for days and wear hourglass corsets while doing pin-up burlesque.
Is this from dancing on the binary line for so many years or just a bisexual mood?

Sorry that ~90% of my toots have to do with Crippling Anxiety & Depression™

#introductions

Hey, I'm Yvonne and I have no idea how anything works here. 😅 Been interested in Mastodon for some time (though the tumblr-pocalypse brought me to this instance) and I really love Solarpunk ideals

28 y.o, Black, bi, designer/developer, also into upcycling, crafting, sewing, DIY, permaculture, anime and animation, tech, music, and more that I can't think of right now.

My boyfriend (who was with me the whole time) agreed that the anesthesiologist was a colossal asshole and proceeded to tell each (very kind and patient) nurse that we encountered afterwards. Considering that I was going to go for the procedure before talking to the jerk doctor, the bf is saying that Dr. Jerk kicked me in the proverbial nuts and that it's okay. But I still feel like I wimped out after weeks of preparation and wasted everyone's time, no matter how they disagree. Idk. I'm exhausted and I feel like I expended all of my spoons for the day.

I was supposed to have an endoscopy today which I scheduled maybe a month ago. From the moment they mentioned that I would be under anesthesia I was exceedingly nervous. Never been under before and all that. But over the past weeks I had been talking with several people about the experience and trying to face it head-on. So today I walked into my appointment, somewhat nervous but still intending to just go through it after speaking with the anesthesiologist to assuage anything else. That did not work because the guy was a jerkface that, after I explained my anxiety and how I was feeling and worries about possible allergies to the medication, basically told me that I just needed to man up and do it. I ended up freaking out and crying as soon as he left the room and after maybe 45 minutes I left the hospital. I feel like a wimp.

And I know I'm preaching to the choir here, but I keep forgetting it's a holiday until I see either a gratuitous display of red, white, and blue or people protesting in person or online. Like, fuck America and its innate apathy and cruelty to human beings and the state of the world, but I honestly feel like I can't handle getting pushback on this in a different space.

It's crazy how in the middle of such national crises (on top of, you know, everything else), people are still celebrating America Day. Like, I'm half "Who's gonna tell them 👀" and half "I don't have the spoons for this 😑"

I believe in and appreciate the change of language with usage and time, but it's because of this that I don't see "bisexual" as only conforming to the gender binary. As "nimrod" is no longer that guy that built the Tower of Babel and "literally" is more of an intensifier than its literal definition, I think "bisexuality" should be more separated from its 1800s definition. I personally see bisexuality as having an attraction to your same gender as well as others in a way where the attraction is different between genders. Also, I kinda planted roots and found commonality in the bi label (though this could be my old fogie but being scared of change). So I still am gonna go by the label "bi" (not that it matters much because once again I am a forever-closeted person) but I respect the search for more clear and inclusive language. And also it has the prettiest flag, though omnisexual is starting to win me over.

Also, y'all should block DisneyDream@lgbt.io because what the shit

I, in Internet years, am an elder who has seen the evolution of human thought (Or at least middle-aged) and I feel this way the most when I see people debating on the label for people who like more than one gender. (I'm attributing this conversation to the internet because I'm a forever-closeted person who can't seek out these talks IRL.)

So far I know of:
• Bisexuality
• Pansexuality
• Polysexuality
• Omnisexuality
(See pics for flags)

And the differences between them seem really muddy to me. What I've got is that some people are rejecting the bi label because they feel it reinforces the gender binary, polysexuals are attracted to more than one gender but not necessarily all... and that's all I got. Pansexuality and omnisexuality tend to get defined as the same thing, though some protest. (cont.)

Nvm, I figured it out. New button. 😬

I've apparently been gone from Mastodon too long because I can't schedule boosts through Fedilab anymore and it's tripping me out.