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Wow, I blinked and months passed. Sorry I've been gone for so long!

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I'm Yvonne, joined SBC in Dec 2018. Crafty, DIY enthusiast who's Solarpunk at heart. Soft spot for destigmatizing mental health and neurodivergency.

29 y.o., Black (Ghana by way of NY), Bi, :autism: (I think), designer/developer, geeky (D&D, anime, what have you), also into music, cooking, animation, film/videography, art for art's sake, and just being chill.

Hi! :blobcatpeek:

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[We, you and I, sit in a dark room with overhead lighting from a single lamp. There is an old oak desk between us. My hands are folded in front of my slightly turned face.]

Me: So... (Reaches into pocket and slides you a $20 over the table) let's become friends and talk about our issues and relentlessly support each other through everything. Or, (reaches into pocket and pulls out a number of queer flag stickers, flipping them between fingers) should I sweeten the deal?

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Sorry that ~90% of my toots have to do with Crippling Anxiety & Depression™

cw: death 

And why is it that nowadays with these "bi-partisan" arguments, it really comes down to "do you care about people dying or nah?" And this really shouldn't be such a controversial question! Like, what the fuck is wrong with you?

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Ya ever just post an article on social media and your SO's relative comes in with stupid-ass alt-right arguing points and you can't curse them out for being so stupid and unfeeling as they are because you have to maintain good relations with your SO's family?
🙃🙃🙃

"Philadelphia is in a state of emergency.
There are NO shelter beds available for families in the entire region.
 Please donate for AirBNB stays so these babies and their parents have someplace safe to sleep during this pandemic. 

Organized by SREHUP: Student-Run Emergency Housing Unit of Philadelphia: SREHUP works to end homelessness for people and their pets. We provide housing, and the services and community that people need to thrive."

gofundme.com/f/airbnb-for-home

July 4, Hawaii, Independence 

Neofeud is a game about my experiences growing up in Hawaii's ghetto, being a social worker & STEM teacher for poor, homeless, refugees, mostly non-white kids in slums of Hawaii the tour buses avoid, while living out of a van. 100% of sales go to putting a roof over my kids' head.

silverspook.itch.io/neofeud

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mental health mayday (anxiety, racial violence, death, Hamilton #BLM) 

I have a long history of having sudden panic attacks about death and dying (which I ended up calling "death frights"), and when I say long I mean since my single digit days. Over the past 6 years or so I've been working to become more at peace with the concept of death and the death frights had significantly lessened in intensity and frequency, from a once-a-week thing to once every blue moon. However, with everything going on, reading about people's horrible deaths, the lynchings happening across the country, my grasp on peace has been looser and looser. Yet, somehow watching Hamilton last night and then finding out the intentionality behind Breonna Taylor (and more lynchings) today has me teetering the edge.

Long story short, I'm not doing well, holding on but not sure how long I can, please help. Try anything.

Streaming Animal Crossing at 3 (in an hour and a half), if you wanna pop in.

twitch.tv/akuaevonne

Since bandcamp are once again waiving their fees on purchases I'm reposting my list of 40 black experimental artists here.

If you want to support artists today is the day!

#bandcamp #music #experimental #experimentalmusic

buymusic.club/list/lazarski-co

why is finding options to add closed captions to streams soooo haaardddd????

/whine

Do y'all know of someone who could make a cute chibi bust of me for my Twitch channel? (yes I am paying.) I don't need a background; I'll design one myself. Black/POC priority if possible. If interested, plz PM me!

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I am trying to come up with an idea to post to keep my notifications lane moving but can't think of anything so can you just like and/or boost this post for no reasons? Thanks.

Hey everyone! The official trailer for Onyx Equinox, the Epic Mesoamerican Fantasy Crunchy Roll original is our NOW! I worked on this show so check it out If you can and let me know your thoughts in the comments or on discord!

¡El avance oficial de Onyx Equinox, la épica fantástica Mesoamericana de Crunchy Roll ya salió! ¡Trabajé en esta serie así que héchenle un ojo si pueden Y díganle lo que piensan en los comentarios o en discord!

youtu.be/vVBAOJIi6Tg

stress, medical issues, money 

All I keep thinking about is "I don't have anything but flats and Converses", "supportive shoes are way expensive", "I haven't found one deodorant that works for me and doesn't give me cysts", "whyyyy a smart watch?"

I just... I am stressed. And I feel like because I can't afford these solutions I'm going to be unhirable and falling apart and getting worse for the rest of forever. And I am stressed.

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stress, medical issues, money 

So I went to the doctor today about some pain I have in my right big toe. Turns out it's a bone spur. She said it shouldn't require x-rays or surgery, but I should "get more supportive shoes and avoid wearing flats."
She then inquired about my hormone testing I did a month ago and a follow-up I still need to do. This is primarily about me having high levels of cortisol (the stress hormone, go figure). So, piggy-backing off of that were questions about my ongoing issues with body odor (which she suggested I get a cream-based hypoallergenic deodorant), heart palpitations (she wants me to get a smart watch to track my pulse), and facial hair, and said it's probably all tied to the cortisol. Go figure.

I am here low key but really high key freaking out. Not just because I have a freaking bone spur that won't leave, but all the solutions cost a lot of money, money which I do not have. At all.

RT @animalcrossing@twitter.com

[Announcement]
Cool off this summer by diving into the #AnimalCrossing: New Horizons free Summer Update – Wave 1, arriving 7/3! Put on your wet suit to dive & swim in the ocean, and even meet new characters! Stay tuned for info on Wave 2, planned for release in early August.

🐦🔗: twitter.com/animalcrossing/sta

Anti-queer violence, gofundme 

A young queer man was tortured and mutilated under the pretence of a Grindr date.
If you can, please consider his gofundme

gofundme.com/f/21o35cnd5c

depression, anxiety, current events, money woes, generally (-) stuff 

I think that after I finish this one freelance project I have, i'll have to stop working for a while. And it freaking sucks.

I just feel like I can't gather my brain enough to do what it needs to do. Every day I feel too wrung dry or scattered to get anything done. And I know that I'm on a depressive downswing and ADHD is a thing and being stressed about current events is definitely not helping. And I probably really need a break.

But I like having money? Like, I can live without it; I'll still have a roof and (mostly) have (some sort of) food to eat. But it sucks not being able to get things for myself and constantly having to ask others to get me things. it suuuuucksssss.

I was thinking of reflavoring The Barber of Silverymoon for the first adventure, then go to the one I ran before, and then go on to one that I have in my head but haven't written out yet. However, I'm not too fond of the Barber campaign because it just feels too silly for the intrigue vibe I'm going for, at least for the first group adventure. Yet, I need to find a way to introduce them to this foreign setting. And peeps got suggestions?

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Sunbeam City 🌻

Sunbeam City is a Libertarian Socialist solarpunk instance. It is ran democratically by a cooperative of like-minded individuals.