🧪 Kira 🦊 @tty@sunbeam.city

I adore this poem -- it's been a bit of a guiding light 🌟 for me. It's been pinned to my browser tabs for weeks, and when I feel down I pick a stanza to read.

https://www.loveyourselfproject.org/PDF/charliechaplinpoem.pdf

i am such a mess

my first plan was to mount this dc light switch using three bamboo pieces (one bracing each side, one across the top), but using a vice + pliers to shape two strips of metal into an S shape I think might prove to be easier

My Life at 800Mhz

"It’s hard to convey how much of an anti-problem this ends up being. This laptop feel a bit cozier, sort of a reprieve from the mainstream flow of the centralization of socialization. [...] most of the things that don’t work well on here are things we don’t need to be using anyhow."

https://artemis.sh/2022/01/12/life-at-800mhz.html

tl;dr is that i might have to disclose my cptsd to these folx to be able to get accomodations *sigh*

i asked if i could get some noise-cancelling headphones because they help me focus

he pushed really hard toward no, because he was worried if someone came to my office for tech help, i wouldn't be able to hear a knock on the door.

so i said ok let's experiment with that & see if we can hear the knock /w the headphones on

then he moved the goalpost, and said headphones would give some kind of bad / unavailable impression to people, and that I should want to appear "as available as possible" to people

his other response when I held the boundary: maybe just take some time and you'll get used to it

his response: this is a normal thing that we do

like, please don't ssh into my machine and just start poking around?

trying to set some boundaries with my boss today, ugh, very rough-going

so far responses are of the flavour "ok i hear you, but remember i can do whatever i want"

depression & anxiety at the same time is.. such a flavour

"The Amish are steadily adopting technology — at their pace. They are slow geeks. As one Amish man told Howard Rheingold,
'We don’t want to stop progress, we just want to slow it down,' But their manner of slow adoption is instructive."

https://kk.org/thetechnium/amish-hackers-a/

trying to figure out how to keep this institution job from breaking me down :/

it's been hard, so far. days where i can work from home help me stay grounded a lot easier.

exhausted by institutions & bureaucracies

yesterday i had to fill out a form 4 times, and select a total of 168 drop-down menu options

i also got turned away from the background check office after biking there because my manager's signature wasn't in ink

fucccc this shit

Inspired by https://merveilles.town/@ndpi/107610866546199587, I ask y'all:

What does "appropriate technology" mean to you?

My job is up on a hill, so right now I'm using the bus to lug myself up it partway, but as my body gets stronger it's going to be really amazing to hopefully be able to do there/back 100% on my own!