notplants @notplants@sunbeam.city

not sure how to put this into words

enjoying imagining where I am,
the particularities,
of where i live,
where i was before,
where i might be going next,
all as a sort of combination that isn't perfect at all but will also never come again

thinking about a time when I was on a hike with a friend in a forest that I will probably never go back to and don't even know exactly where it is
and I stopped and was looking down some train tracks that were really beautifully overgrown
and my friend was calling to me
up ahead saying that the sun was setting and we needed to get back

and I was feeling I can't soak in all this beauty and I will never be back here again and that's kind of beautiful too

[black writing on white background, reads: "Weak? I? Directly descended from the sun?]

from https://www.are.na/block/7828295
from Anne Stevenson, Stone Milk; “The Myth of Medea”

enjoyed imagining kleinanzeigen (german craigslist) in relation to the mall or amazon,
a sort of city-wide store where you have to bike around to get the things,
a certain beauty to it

seems surprising/remarkable that candles are silent

dreaming about how i could make my shared workspace feel more cozy and inviting

there are a lot of people and writers who are producing such powerful work, in a 24/7 timeline its all there. in a library its all there.
but oversaturation and it also loses some potency

what does reading do for you?
what does three meals a day look like?
which foods nourish you and which are more like dates on the counter?
I love dates, but they don't last long..

not sure how to put this into words

enjoying imagining where I am,
the particularities,
of where i live,
where i was before,
where i might be going next,
all as a sort of combination that isn't perfect at all but will also never come again

thinking about a time when I was on a hike with a friend in a forest that I will probably never go back to and don't even know exactly where it is
and I stopped and was looking down some train tracks that were really beautifully overgrown
and my friend was calling to me
up ahead saying that the sun was setting and we needed to get back

and I was feeling I can't soak in all this beauty and I will never be back here again and that's kind of beautiful too

while lying in the light of the full moon I didn't feel alone

turned off notifications in are.na, not just "push notifications" but any notifications. can't see when anyone interacts with anything and find it very peaceful

making me dream about never seeing any "likes" anywhere. to never know who likes anything

perhaps a chrome extension to filter them out from fediverse?

I know I started the day on the right foot when the pressure cooker is at 15psi by 10:23 am

pulled a muscle in my neck randomly and in a lot of pain; on the plus side the things I wanted to do this week but feel disappointed I can't do now, is a nice reminder of the things that I actually really like doing

as a person who has been practicing sobriety during the lockdown and living alone this toot is half-joke half-real-life-self-care-practice

if ur sober here are some tips
hot soup = weed
cold shower = aderal
hot water with lemon = xanax
dancing = mdma
going outside = lsd
chocolate = alcohol
baked potato = ketamine

I know I don’t normally speak very highly of drones, but I would like it if there was a flying drone in my home, and whenever I was sick of my phone I could just toss it in the air, and a drone would fly by and grab the phone and take it to the closet and put in a jar out of sight so I would have to go manually walk over and get the phone when I need it again

i like to think that this year, on the positive side, i’ve probably learned some coping strategies and practices that will also prove helpful in easier years

enjoying thinking about signs and planets (or any archetypes even beyond astrology) as having different expressions which can come out depending on circumstance.

also interesting, the two meanings of the word aspect. according to sasportas, the different "aspects" of a planet's expression may come out depending on how a planet is "aspected" (a term in astrology which means the angles planets make between each other). love how this gives more texture than just "this" or "that"

from "The Twelve Houses: Exploring The Houses Of The Horoscope" by Howard Sasportas

thinking about how sometimes when I'm just on the edge of sleep,
I sometimes start to have dreams with very elaborate things happening
like i'll be listening to a podcast that doesn't exist with multiple characters discussing a topic I've never heard anything about before
sometimes i'll be like this interesting,
and sometimes my dream self will literally be thinking this is a boring podcast but i dont know that im dreaming