notplants @notplants@sunbeam.city

[black writing on white background, reads: "Weak? I? Directly descended from the sun?]

from https://www.are.na/block/7828295
from Anne Stevenson, Stone Milk; “The Myth of Medea”

what I eat effects my emotions so much, and varies over time. there is no silver bullet. when I find something that gives me energy and puts me in a good mood, I feel grateful even though I know this particular thing may not work for me forever
(currently grateful for smoothie of orange and oat milk blended and drank at 8pm)

drawing inspiration from this image

also felt like a form of community care, getting all these people trudging through winter out into the sun to move their bodies

someone in berlin organized a silent dance in a park, where we all wore headphones and clicked play on a playlist at the same time and danced in the sun scattered around the park for an hour (with lots of space in between)

I felt really moved watching everyone dance. it felt like the basic essence of connection was still there, and the resilience of people to find ways to connect felt really powerful

living in a house with many people right now and sharing a room,
realized that by waking up earlier than everyone else I can have the whole morning to be alone

morning as studio, time as a sort of space

would be just fine with never seeing the word premium again

realized that most of my favorite online accounts were soothing and gentle at some level and thinking about how to channel more of that energy

here I am, trying to be more present in this space

not just an avatar, I am also a person (on the left, my friend @Franz on the right)

a part of me misses friends who I know are on instagram and not here

hopefully planting seeds for a new way of being online

#introduction

some interests I might write about:
mycology, queer liberation, ramana maharsi, community organizing, snippets of things I am reading

also made a website with some more graphics like the above

not sure where these should live yet, exploring
http://img.canalswans.net/nannou1/index.html

been staying at my friends for the past few days, staying inside, playing with loop machine, cooking, watching first season of star trek,

the whole group groans every few minutes at the latest sexist comment

maybe i live in a bubble, but feels like world has come a long way

[white text on blue geometric background reads “imagining a montage of all the sexist scenes from the first star trek strung together into a montage, franz says it would just be the old show]

and thanks @s0 this caught me at the right moment somehow

@clover
@pfx
@aurora

thank you <3

when I came back to my phone and saw people had boosted the search and you had found the toot, I felt so warm and grateful

I thought it was kind of a shot in the dark, and was a nice surprise ! makes fediverse feel like a helpful place

I’m searching for a toot, if anyone has seen it

it was tagged “autism, positive”
tooted a couple days ago

I guess I didn’t click favourite, and now I can’t find it and not sure how to search for it

I think someone I’m following must have retooted it

the original poster also had another nearby root tagged “autism, negative”

basically if anyone remembers a recent toot tagged autism, negative or autism, positive , would be great, that would help me find the poster

really I am searching for the autism, positive toot, which was about the feeling of water falling through leaves and I found beautiful

#autism #losttoot