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Fuck capitalism, fuck consumerism
Let's compost the rich
And grow something beautiful

Heavy stuff, the planet 

But you know what?


My mum asks, I ask, 'what can we DO'

We can do BETTER

We can believe in a future that's worth fighting for, and fight for it

FUCK this destructive, delusional, global suicide cult. We can choose to fucking THRIVE. They love our apathy. FUCK apathy. FUCK despair.

We can do better.

We can do AMAZING.

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One teaching of Zen is that's it's foolish to fear the future, because it's unknown, and our fears are so hopelessly tangled up with our beliefs about the world rather than the world itself. We've no hope of knowing the future if we can't even know the present.

Another is that you need to face reality as it is, not how you want or fear it to be

And that's all good, brisk, Zen advice

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Dad has a habit of saying he never thought the human race had a long term future. I have a bad habit of saying it's not long term, it's my future, the future of their grandchildren

'I'm going to live through this'

Mum said, 'I know we won't see it but...'

But. She didn't want to start comparing, didn't want to say something that sounds foolish or dismissive.

She's the kindest person I know. Obviously I say that, she's my mum. But, really, she is.

I'm so worried this pandemic will mean I never see them again


'I know we won't see it, but...

'When I think of you and your brothers... I'm your mother, when you have children... You're so much more to me than this adult here, I knew you all from...', she rocks her arms to her chest, rocking our vanished infancy in a lullaby; 'you're immense to me, the vastness of all of you, your whole lives... And even more so for the grandchildren...

...and the thought you might be headed for...'


She trails off

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I've been to visit my mum and dad today (72, 78). Kept our distance in the garden

I've been stressing recently that we're on course for the collapse of civilization within the next 40 years. I've been grieving, in so many complex ways, for the planet, for the future

I told mum. Part of me wanted her to lovingly shush me, tell me it will all be alright. I'm 39 but my mum is still my mum

She just looked ashen. 'I know', she said. 'I know'

'I worry,' I said, 'that this is the first and mildest dislocation from The world before. It's just going to get worse. I think the 21st century is going to be very grim, even if the species survives'

'I think you're right'

Dad kept trying to change the subject. He grew up in a world without plastic or mass car ownership, air travel; he was teaching global warming back in the 70s. No one listened. I don't think he can bear the trauma

'But what can you DO?' said mum. 'What can any of us actually DO?'

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Hello I'm back and I'm increasingly radicalized

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Anywhere but Westminster remains among the few bright spots of decent journalism in these islands

Would love to go for a walk and watch the city but my foot is ~~damaged~~ and I think requires rest

I've been easing back into a full meditation routine recently and it's... I'm...

Everyday life is becoming a little bit like being on a tiny bit of LSD

A read a thread on The Other Place on "what has LSD taught you', and one of the replies was

There are no rules, but everyone follows them anyway

Human lives and civilization is mostly a story told far away from the immediacy of the real

I just used my credit card to spend £££ on new trainers but it's FINE because

A) I genuinely needed new trainers

B) £££ is a reasonable price when you have difficult biomechanics and getting it wrong messes up your whole body

C) the sales guy was super cute

Looking at OU courses the other day and wondered about a Philosophy BA

On discovering the course was 6 years, decided to look at other options. The Diploma of Higher Education struck me as a possible pathway

I already have a DipHE in Philosophy

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