today i'm listening to be steadwell
and it just occurred to me that Greens is the adorable joyful queer solarpunk song we all deserve:
(if you prefer a more polished version... but she is SO cute in the youtube video)
so, I guess I am going to toss my name into the #TransCrowdFund ring here. Not having a vehicle is no longer feasible for the care of myself and my disabled girlfriend. Trying to get a van, but at this point, anything will do. Thank you all! https://www.gofundme.com/trans-girl-needs-transport&rcid=r01-154810592091-66e82acc82654b27&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w
learning to program is stressful lmao Show more
honestly the more i learn about programming the more amazing it seems to me that things have gotten to where they are today
learning C is HARD AF and messes up SO EASILY and at the time it was revolutionary bc it made things so much easier to understand for humans
i have so much respect for those early (mostly women) of computing who had to do everything by hand in binary / hex / machine language / assembly. like wow.
somehow all of that turned into these massive online worlds and programs that do so many more complicated things than arithmetic and have been invested w so much meaning
but in the meantime i just crashed my tiny program bc i forgot to use strcopy and tried to make one char* equal another
learning to program is stressful lmao Show more
i feel like learning programming languages is just an exercise in slowly tearing your hair out over a minor issue that's ruining your program until you realize its because of one tiny mess up in a really innocuous spot
"there's no way i could mess up making something equal something else, i don't need to re-read that part that carefully"
music + mental health / positive with some neg self talk? Show more
wow i am so glad i put some time into making a silly, self indulgent "feel good" playlist for myself
its hard to be in a garbage mood when ur listening to make me feel
im slowly training myself to believe its okay to do things just bc i like them and its really nice
Gendervague: At the Intersection of Autistic and Trans Experiences
What is Gendervague?
"Orkney was once utterly dependent on power that was produced by burning coal and gas on the Scottish mainland and then transmitted through an undersea cable. Today the islands are so festooned with wind turbines, they cannot find enough uses for the emission-free power they create on their own.
Community-owned wind turbines generate power for local villages; islanders drive nonpolluting cars that run on electricity; devices that can turn the energy of the waves and the tides into electricity are being tested in the islands’ waters and seabed; and – in the near future – car and passenger ferries here will be fuelled not by diesel but by hydrogen, created from water that has been electrolysed using power from Orkney’s wind, wave and tide generators."
rescue dog training blues Show more
heres a pic of him the very first time my partner and i met him vs a pic of him from last month snuggled into my lap as a reminder to myself
he's come so far!!!
it takes time!!!
rescue dog training blues / dog aggression cw Show more
we've had our dog for almost a year now and we're still struggling to help him out with his anxiety and fear reactivity.
its really hard bc it seems like as he comes to trust us slightly more he's actually showing his fear more openly, which has led to a lot of snapping and snarling, mostly at me it seems.
we just did a trainer consult with a really great force-free trainer and even just the consult helped me to make a lot of sense out of his behaviours
but its still really scary and sad when he snaps at me, especially because he almost always tries to do so when i'm clipping his harness and jacket on so we can go out in the freezing cold canadian winter, which he also hates as a tiny super short haired doggo.
i know its a process and i know its going to take time but its so hard knowing im such a source of fear for this lil guy and that im building a fear of him in return from all the close calls
Lunarpunk Music, Album Drop, YElling Show more
THIS ALBUM IS FREE TO LISTEN TO, IT IS LITERALLY SOFT CHILL BEATS FOR YOU TO STUDY AND RELAX TO. IT'S FIRST SONG IS CALLED SUNBEAM AND THERE'S ANOTHER CALLED SEEDLING IF YOU DON'T FREAK ABOUT THIS WITH ME WE'RE NOT FRIENDS.
Depression talk + Show more
I have a new phrase, I want to share it with you. This phrase, much like any coping mechanism, can be easily misused.
It's "that says nothing about -you-" in response to someone doing/not doing a small basic tasks.
For example, I discovered this phrase when Roommate was beating herself up for not taking a shower. When I said "You taking a shower or not says nothing about you as a person." she seemed relieved, and then ended up taking the shower.
Partner and I were maybe gettin into sexy times, but they stopped, and asked if it was okay if they didn't.
Depression makes you place heavy value judgements on the smallest parts of yourself. But a lot of stuff you do regularly because "you should" is totally optional, to at least some degree. And reframing it not as a "reflection" of the self but just "possible" to you as a concept seems to free you of some of that weight.
dry shampoo! especially good for the spoonies and depressed folks (like me)
mix together baking soda and cornstarch (idk, like probably 50/50). take an old make up brush and put it on your hair and brush out.
you can also add in some cocoa powder to make it a little less glaring white
super easy #sunDIY - coconut oil chocolate!
basically, using a ratio of 1:1:0.5 for coconut oil, cocoa, and honey / maple syrup you can make tasty chocolate! you can also add more honey / syrup if you like it really sweet, but w that ratio its pretty much ideal for me!
its fun if you have fancy ice cube trays to put them in those to have different shapes, but if you don't you can just put it in any small pan and just cut it up after to whatever size you like!
- 2/3 cup coconut oil
- 2/3 cup cocoa
- 1/3 cup honey or maple syrup
- lil splash of vanilla
- pinch of salt
heat up the oil until it's fully melted and then stir in the rest of the ingredients until it's all fully incorporated.
i usually do the honey / syrup last because if it has too much time it'll settle to the bottom.
then, pour it a) into your ice cube trays b) onto a parchment lined baking sheet or c) into some muffin liners on a baking sheet and put it in your freezer to cool! keep 'em thin and it shouldnt be long!
#sunDIY this recipe embodies my childhood. I haven't tested it w vegan butter
40 odd saltine crackers
1 cup butter
1 cup brown sugar
1 and 1/2 cups chocolate chips
Preheat oven to 350°
Line a cookie sheet (with sides!) with aluminum foil and spray with cooking spray
Arrange as many crackers on the sheet as you can
Melt butter and sugar in a small pan
Bring to a hard boil for 3 minutes
Pour evenly over crackers, spreading as needed
Bake 3-5 minutes, until sugar bubbles again
Sprinkle evenly with chocolate chips, and spread when melted
Break apart when cool