James @cosmic@sunbeam.city

today i'm listening to be steadwell

and it just occurred to me that Greens is the adorable joyful queer solarpunk song we all deserve:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-3uprO4hBPM

or

https://open.spotify.com/track/78ZbxZUzAKEyfLLBVEqEl5?si=EIGKZxMSS9CnxjEXL-BSSg

(if you prefer a more polished version... but she is SO cute in the youtube video)

honestly the more i learn about programming the more amazing it seems to me that things have gotten to where they are today

learning C is HARD AF and messes up SO EASILY and at the time it was revolutionary bc it made things so much easier to understand for humans

i have so much respect for those early (mostly women) of computing who had to do everything by hand in binary / hex / machine language / assembly. like wow.

somehow all of that turned into these massive online worlds and programs that do so many more complicated things than arithmetic and have been invested w so much meaning

but in the meantime i just crashed my tiny program bc i forgot to use strcopy and tried to make one char* equal another

i feel like learning programming languages is just an exercise in slowly tearing your hair out over a minor issue that's ruining your program until you realize its because of one tiny mess up in a really innocuous spot

"there's no way i could mess up making something equal something else, i don't need to re-read that part that carefully"

lol nope.

wow i am so glad i put some time into making a silly, self indulgent "feel good" playlist for myself

its hard to be in a garbage mood when ur listening to make me feel

im slowly training myself to believe its okay to do things just bc i like them and its really nice

"Orkney was once utterly dependent on power that was produced by burning coal and gas on the Scottish mainland and then transmitted through an undersea cable. Today the islands are so festooned with wind turbines, they cannot find enough uses for the emission-free power they create on their own.

Community-owned wind turbines generate power for local villages; islanders drive nonpolluting cars that run on electricity; devices that can turn the energy of the waves and the tides into electricity are being tested in the islands’ waters and seabed; and – in the near future – car and passenger ferries here will be fuelled not by diesel but by hydrogen, created from water that has been electrolysed using power from Orkney’s wind, wave and tide generators."

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2019/jan/20/orkney-northern-powerhouse-electricity-wind-waves-surplus-power-hydrogen-fuel-cell

heres a pic of him the very first time my partner and i met him vs a pic of him from last month snuggled into my lap as a reminder to myself

he's come so far!!!

it takes time!!!

we've had our dog for almost a year now and we're still struggling to help him out with his anxiety and fear reactivity.

its really hard bc it seems like as he comes to trust us slightly more he's actually showing his fear more openly, which has led to a lot of snapping and snarling, mostly at me it seems.

we just did a trainer consult with a really great force-free trainer and even just the consult helped me to make a lot of sense out of his behaviours

but its still really scary and sad when he snaps at me, especially because he almost always tries to do so when i'm clipping his harness and jacket on so we can go out in the freezing cold canadian winter, which he also hates as a tiny super short haired doggo.

i know its a process and i know its going to take time but its so hard knowing im such a source of fear for this lil guy and that im building a fear of him in return from all the close calls

super easy #sunDIY - coconut oil chocolate!

basically, using a ratio of 1:1:0.5 for coconut oil, cocoa, and honey / maple syrup you can make tasty chocolate! you can also add more honey / syrup if you like it really sweet, but w that ratio its pretty much ideal for me!

its fun if you have fancy ice cube trays to put them in those to have different shapes, but if you don't you can just put it in any small pan and just cut it up after to whatever size you like!

- 2/3 cup coconut oil
- 2/3 cup cocoa
- 1/3 cup honey or maple syrup
- lil splash of vanilla
- pinch of salt

heat up the oil until it's fully melted and then stir in the rest of the ingredients until it's all fully incorporated.

i usually do the honey / syrup last because if it has too much time it'll settle to the bottom.

then, pour it a) into your ice cube trays b) onto a parchment lined baking sheet or c) into some muffin liners on a baking sheet and put it in your freezer to cool! keep 'em thin and it shouldnt be long!