Mo Martin and nothing but! @MordecaiPinhas@sunbeam.city

ma your mcm says "let's get this bread" when it's almost passover

i wanna twirl on my haters

it's really entertaining to me how white climate activists and progressives in general (esp online) will bemoan how "humans" have destroyed the planet -- while ignoring the fact that colonialism has/is currently wiping out sustainable ways of being that have existed for millennia.
It is the height of hubris and eurocentrism to assign blame to our entire species in all it's diverse facets for the crimes of europe's capitalist regime.

Some of the most sustainable ways of being are exactly the cultures most at risk of climate and industry violence. stop whitewashing humanity.

lives and histories, as experiencing emotions and pain, etc. ... things which white people are observed to neglect even within hegemonic society's science, regardless of dis/ability.

I dunno where I'm headed with this from this point on, LOL

One thing missing from this ability analysis is, e.g., there's studies suggesting the single biggest cause of PTSD in America is 'being Black under white supremacy'.

but to get to the concept that, perhaps, the person of color you are wielding this shallow disability analysis against may also be disabled in ways that makes this discussion even more difficult for them, you'd first have to understand people of color as having internal

disability or illness.

(I say 'angry Black woman' because I was on Tumblr in 2010-2015 and, whoo, that happened a Lot. Black men Certainly must also manage white perceptions of themselves as angry!)

race class and gender! instead, be ~intersectional~ by considering our conversation as an isolated individual phenomenon, structured only by disability! I miss social cues, I have social anxiety, I'm having a panic attack, etc., so you have to stop being so angry at me!

This doesn't stop being a white fragility response, or a racist use of 'angry Black woman, angry WOC', because simultaneously the person experiences it through...

I've been on the Internet, and in Internet social justice spaces, for— well. nine years is not, objectively, a *long* time, but it's long enough to see certain patterns play out over and over.

one thing that just doesn't stop is super shallow disability analyses used to shut down conversations about whiteness. it has become popular to pair this approach with 'intersectional' as a buzzword; stop analyzing this as intersecting with...

when either of us fails to process the emotions of a person of color, for instance neglecting to notice their distress or misinterpreting an appropriate request for respect as anger, it is surely true that we're exhibiting a social processing difference. But here, it is enlightening to point out that allistic whites also 'exhibit this difference,' and that perhaps the source is not our neural difference but what we are allowed to get away with due to our whiteness.

when my father ignores or lashes out at me for needing his help while he's doing something else, he is experiencing hyperfocus and having trouble with changing sets. but this is not the only possible manifestation of that symptom (or neurotype-characteristic, if you prefer).

so like, I can't get away with that shit. I'm likely to respond to the interruption, albeit while noticeably disoriented and irritated, and then struggle to return to the task.

out of the household and into the public sphere.

the dramas and tensions of a household play out on the personal scale and are easy to render in a conventional narrative, and we will not have that advantage in a structural analysis. but the insight that there are factual conditions of the world with asymmetric effects for those living here, that the autism we see is not *solely* the result of the mind-in-a-vacuum, allows for a deeper understanding.

system which understands children as the property of their parents, allows parents to sequester their children away from the oversight of other adults, & exert total power & authority over their children. my father was given this right by society, like his father before him, & he was taught what to do with it by his father. there is a clear chain of causation here, propped up by identifiable, factual material conditions.

we can extend this insight...

needs in a variety of contexts. it empowers us both through bourgeois whiteness, and it empowers my father over me through cis/het/gendered power.

Here's a different, perhaps more meaningful question: would my father still be an asshole if our society had collective childrearing?

I think the answer is 'much less likely, at least less likely to have been an asshole to me'. My abusive father had his own abusive father, and both were enabled by that...

So when autistic cishet white men talk over gendered and racial Others, trample boundaries, or disrespect feelings, it should be understood within the context of autistic differences in social processing, sure; but it should also be understood within the context of cishet white men's differences in structural power. Not just what an individual autist can or cannot do, but what they can or cannot get away with.

society disables me, and my father, by neglecting our access

harm an autistic Black man with no stimulus more pressing than harmless, 'strange' behavior and an inability to respond quickly and fluently to the pig's sudden demands.

we might point to the experiences of autistic Black men with cops and the carceral system as a much more intense form of an ableist 'creep stigma'. if autistic cishet white men are called 'creepy' by women to whom they have been disrespectful, that's one thing.

but Black men don't need to do anything in particular to be understood as 'suspicious,' and Black autistic men are much less able to be viewed as 'quirky' in a safe way; cops will brutally...

autistic women are frequently diagnosed because we are exhausted. our environments punish us more harshly for inelegant social behaviors that the (particularly: cishet) men of our peers can more safely retain; a combination of 'women are nice, and social facilitators! men can be such oafs' and 'men can do whatever the fuck they want.' we learn to be what our societies want of us, but it takes a huge toll on our ability to function. we're more disorganized than awkward.