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heritage 

I am a white passing mixed person. My maternal grandfather came here from China on a Fullbright scholarship. I grew up eating dim sum, chicken feet, celebrating Lunar New Year, and getting red envelopes of lucky money at birthdays and holidays. ❤️
I also grew up hearing stories of the racism my mom had to deal with as a visibly brown half-Chinese girl, as well as the shit my grandparents got for being an """"inter-racial couple.""" They were harassed and shunned at every opportunity.

I don't really like being called white or considered white, because I have no relationship to whiteness at all and I have very little in common with other white people when it comes to my upbringing. However, I fully understand that as a light-skinned, blonde, and blue-eyed, person, I receive all the privilege that comes with whiteness.

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I've seen so much at work lately, but I'm so underwater with studying for the MCAT that I never have time to post about it. Just so I don't forget:

- hypertension record
- horrifying effects of poverty and body horror
- drunk guy: the sequel
- heartbreaking CVA
- bag of chips and death

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RT @changelog@twitter.com

We've found it! The only developer in the world who made their website *too* accessible 😆

🐦🔗: twitter.com/changelog/status/1

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as i get older, being smart and/or right is not important, but being earnest and kind is

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meds 

medication is not a good/bad dichotomy. it can be helpful and it can have really harmful side effects. when you get into meds used to treat mental illness every drug is both

even working with a psychiatrist the goal should be to find the best balance of positive outcomes for you with and without medication. when a person is forced by others to take meds that can't be the best outcome for the individual
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Netflix prank show where we tell the architects of the Iraq war that they're going to be presented a Medal of Honor but when they get there we try them for war crimes

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Fuck lol i can’t get out of bed to get my vertigo meds cuz I have vertigo haha kill me

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Prison Abolition and dealing with "The Dangerous Few"

twitter.com/lackingceremony/st

I found this super compelling and it resolves my only holdout argument against prison abolition.

#anarchism #ACAB #abolition

heritage 

So I guess make of that what you will? I've never known what the etiquette is for explaining my relationship to race, ethnicity, and heritage online. I feel it would be misleading to say I'm NOT white, because if you saw me on the street, you'd literally never think of me as an Asian-American. Further, there is a fundamental part of the experience of being an Asian-American that I lack, because I am not visibly Asian in any capacity.

On the other hand, saying I'm white leaves a LOT of my cultural experience out - and it's one I'm very proud of. Little blonde and blue eyed Ess always used to walk up to strangers, beam with joy, and say "I'm Chinese!!!" And they would laugh at me. >_>

On the other other hand? Having to write like five paragraphs about it is exhausting. But I do because I'm always afraid I'll just get told that I need to be quiet and accept that, because I look white, I effectively AM white. Ugh idk.

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heritage 

I am a white passing mixed person. My maternal grandfather came here from China on a Fullbright scholarship. I grew up eating dim sum, chicken feet, celebrating Lunar New Year, and getting red envelopes of lucky money at birthdays and holidays. ❤️
I also grew up hearing stories of the racism my mom had to deal with as a visibly brown half-Chinese girl, as well as the shit my grandparents got for being an """"inter-racial couple.""" They were harassed and shunned at every opportunity.

I don't really like being called white or considered white, because I have no relationship to whiteness at all and I have very little in common with other white people when it comes to my upbringing. However, I fully understand that as a light-skinned, blonde, and blue-eyed, person, I receive all the privilege that comes with whiteness.

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@runKleisli Hi, Im runKleisli! Im asking for $200/mo for rent & utilities!

Im permanently disabled. Arranging means of making money is difficult & overwhelming for me, & I cant maintain regular waking hrs. I was recently forced into an unaffordable living situation through domestic abuse, & need support 2 stay! Plz $

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sometimes i look up at the moon and think, know who else is looking at that very same moon? MILFs in my area. and it puts me at ease

loving post about my cat 

My cat is WET.

She drools like crazy when she's purring. There's literally no way around it. If she's on my lap and she's happy (which, she is, if she's on my lap), I'm getting covered in cat saliva. So is she. She'll leave pools wherever she lays her head. She'll smear it all over me with her nuzzles. She'll leave damp spots on any soft surface she's laying on - towel, my clothes, blanket, pillow, whatever.

Is this gross? Yes. Yes it is. I often find myself saying "you dang gross wet cat" as I wipe down my arms after a cuddle session. But it's also a perfect allegory for loving someone exactly as they are. If I had a magic wand to change her, to make her *not* the sloppiest and drooliest baby possible, I'd never use it. I love her this way. She is my beloved drooly baby. She is perfect. She is my Miso. If at some point in her life she naturally stops drooling like this, so be it. But I wouldn't change her for the world.

tales from the ED - death of young person, description, graphic 

"Well, if he had hemotympanum, that sounds like a basilar skull fracture. For you to die of blunt injury, you have to sustain pretty heavy force. There's probably some significant neurological damage. My guess is he "Supermanned" into the windshield and broke his skull. So he probably died because his brain was cooked."

I didn't say anything, but I must've looked unhappy because the ED doc followed that up with, "Sorry."

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tales from the ED - death of young person, description, graphic 

Alcohol on board. Single vehicle accident. No seatbelt. Car flipped several times.

Technically, I did not see him die - he was already dead when he came to us, but CPR was still in progress while they set up the echocardiogram for the trauma surgeon to check if there was any hope of him coming back. He was intubated in the field, and had a very low heart rate (50s, then down to 30s) before losing pulse. He regained pulse twice with CPR, but had again lost it when he came to us.

He had blood coming from his ears, and a towel over his face which was also soaked through with blood. From the neck down, I didn't see any significant wounds. His echo showed no heart activity whatsoever. Time of death was called as soon as we got that echo.

I asked the ED doc I was working with how he would have died.

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