What do you call someone who's presented masc their entire life, lives as a masc person daily (without dysphoria), can't imagine having any identity except their current masculine one, but has had strong feelings of wanting to be a girl (or femme) since childhood?
Because that's me. I don't think I'm trans. I feel moderately comfortable in my male identity, but I've had trans-adjacent feelings for what feels like my entire life.
It's a strange box to be in. I'm learning to accept this as one of the idiosyncrasies of being me, but the fact that there is no irl context in which I can act on these feelings (without risk) makes me feel dreadful often.
@kev hey before you get defederated i wanted to say that i left fosstodon because i felt that if i pointed out any harmful content, the administration would be offended by me doing so.
i wanted to move somewhere where respect and understanding are defaults, rather than being flouted by individuals and mocked by the collective as signs of weakness.
i'm glad i made the decision to leave before you could make me explictly unwelcome. enjoy preaching to the converted.
"Rape culture in Pakistan is the embodiment of a constant and carefully nurtured power struggle, which disdainfully disregards that female wounds are deeper than male ‘desires’. "
pol, art history, fascism
@a_breakin_glass i think part of the problem is that "Silicon Valley" as an idea and culture has swallowed up the past, present and future of computing such that it has become impossible to imagine a non-fascist future of computing or to assert that fascism hasn't been the teleology of computing all along. which sucks. so to outsiders it seems like absolute luddite refusal is the only possible (but of course utterly impossible) solution.
Some awesome folks from #scuttlebutt are working on building cloud infrastructure for cooperatives
Chomsky on decentralization
Reminds me that decentralization was a political idea before it was a technological one.
Apple's hardware aesthetics have an almost terraforming effect: the sleek MacBook makes the rest of your desk look cluttered and irregular, their stores feel like alien temples you must assimilate into the customs of. I would like technology to feel more like going down to a local co-op hardware store where a lesbian sells you a hammer you will own for 30 years.
I try to think of these hardware and software project goals as acts of political imagination: in a world that has stopped capitalism's stranglehold on our species, what does personal computing look like? What choices do we have, how does ownership work, what are the aesthetics? What does it mean for technology to have aesthetics independently of consumerism?
The thing that's really wrong with computing is that the brief period where we "owned" our computers was an anomaly; the norm is that we just lease computers that are under the control of somebody else.
In the beginning that was literally true: you leased the computer, and the computer came with software that you could not modify.
Then you owned the computer but bought or leased the software, but you still couldn't modify much if anything.
A big issue is that it's really hard to make money selling hardware if you don't control the platform. Manufacturing is too competitive. This should be a boon to consumers, but it's not because the IP is tightly controlled. Open system designs can blow that wide open. That's starting to happen now but it's up to us to support those designs by contributing and using them where we can. Even when it means giving up performance and functionality and paying more.
Facebook colludes with the Pakistani government to silence "blasphemers" and critics of the state.
Plantasia: warm music for plants and the people who love them 🌱
Since the whole #HackerNarratives blogpost would be unseemly long, I decided to publish the first chapter - on popculture:
"For years, we've been accepting the capitalistic and individualistic narratives on technology, painting an invention as a work of a single, exceptional individual - not years of work of the whole scientific community or a group of engineers."
Constantly learning/unlearning so I can be a better me and help create a better future
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Sunbeam City is a Libertarian Socialist solarpunk instance. It is ran democratically by a cooperative of like-minded individuals.